To Her

February 1, 2012
We used to stand on the rays of the sun
We used to dance on the waves, having our fun
Now we can't even seem to reach
It's a struggle even to speak
My words are like fire, yours cold as ice
Could I have ever known it would demand such a price
To love you, to hold you, to gaze at your face
Now I'm just here, numb and out of place
We're both headstrong and so we choose to go along
I sure hope we meet on common ground
While we're both here to have the other around

May 19, 2012
Could it be that I'm never satisfied?
Or do I just want off this crazy ride?
You see an angel, I see a demon
Dragging you down with all this schemin
I don't understand, what is the deal
When did lies become what's "real"?
You treat my pain like it's a mere tickle
No wonder I've become so damned fickle
I hate being the enemy; I want to be your friend
It's just that I don't see that the madness will ever end
I can't get that night outta my head
The realization that you could be dead
Not his fault...I'll give you that
But he's done nothing but lead you down this dangerous path

June 3, 2012
Come home with me
Be wild and free
release this misery
Oh baby baby baby

November 26, 2012
I've been hatin not embracin
The whole time my heart is racin
Trying to be a mother to you and your son
While not remembering I am only one
Waking up daily to see if I've killed yet
I can't believe I didn't splatter his blood the day we met
I am not well; I refuse to come to terms with this hell